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May 25, 2005
Truth to Power
It is with great pride and pleasure that I can report to you all that I'm (finally) gainfully employed!
I want to thank all of my dear friends who prayed for me and kept me in their thoughts during the last 10 months. Your positive energy and support kept me focused and motivated during a very difficult time. I will always remember each and every one of you who stood by me and encouraged me to keep my head up when I wanted to hang it in shame. When things looked bleak and I thought that I would never work again, you assured me that nothing lasts forever and I should just keep on keeping on. You showed me the true meaning of selflessness and unconditional love. I can't thank you enough.
It has been said that with great power comes great responsibility. (I'm not sure by whom, but I thought it was pretty empowering when Uncle Pete said it to Spiderman)I realize that I have a great responsiblity, which much like Spiderman, is to protect the innocent from evil-doers
I promised myself that I would not go on and on about the events that occured over the past 10 months because I know that i can be pretty long winded and dramatic, romantic and pedantic about issues and it can be quite tedious...but then again, considering the lessons i've learned over the past 10 months, i'd be doing myself and the world a grave injustice by not sharing these insights.
One of the things I've learned during this time is to speak truth to power. I'm a writer. I communicate my ideas and express myself best through the written word. It's who I be. It is through writing that I make sense of what's going on in the world, and in so doing, make sense of who I am and how I relate to circumstances around me.
This is who I am: I think, I feel and I write what is in my heart and on my mind-without compromise-in the hope that the words I've been inspired to write will encourage others to speak their own truth to power and enjoy the freedom it brings...
Interested in learning more of what I learned? Read on...
Sorry I've been away so long. Did I leave your mind while I was gone...
that little intro was a tribute to our fallen hero Michael Jackson-who is now, Thank God,a free man! Yippeee!!!! I heard that he will no longer allow boys to sleep over at his house or something. He better not walk on the same side of the road, or breathe the same air as them either!
Now, on to more important things-like myself. One of the things I've learned since my unfortunate hiatus is that I'm not doing me enough. I've realized that for 30 years, I've been living other people's expectations, and trying to prove something to everyone. Well, I ain't doin' it no mo'! As a matter of fact, i was going to apologize for taking so long to get back to you-and beating myself up for not being on top of game, but (expletive) it! I'm starting from here. I'm not going to write anything new per se, I need to go back and revise some of the scattered thoughts that have been transcribed over the past few months, for your reading pleasure.
Wait a minute, I lied. I said i wasn't going to write anything new, but I am...in order to fulfill the promise that I've made to myself-which is to keepthe promises I've made myself, the first being that-i must finish what i've started. After that, I promise to write a blog entry every day. I'm going to call my new entries the Subway Soundtrack Series-stay tuned.
I know, I know-you're thinking, I've said "stay tuned" before and haven't come back. Many of you have probably tuned out. Another promise I've made is to not start anything new unless I'm ready to commit to it. That was another important lesson that I learned by failing, quitting and giving up on stuff that I didn't complete because it was just too difficult to keep it up; required too much discipline and sacrifice, and even more important than that-it required a confidence and belief in my abilities that I just didn't have-until now. So, with that being said, I bid you adieu, and I promise, you'll hear from me-sooner, rather than later...
P.S. Ray, I love you!
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